Introduction =D.
This is a blog I wish to dedicate to my one and only dear, Janet Ng (Huang Jiale), where both of us are able to write and share some of our happiest moments with our closed ones. I would like this to also act as a record of the times we spent, and the times we are going to spend in the future. In addition to that, perhaps this can double-act as our communication portal should miscommunication assumed its position in our comfort zone =D.
From strangers to acquiantanceship, from acquiantanceship to close friendship, from close friendship to intimate relationship, this journey began in quite an ordinary fashion, yet surprising and valuable. Two ordinary beings, not so ordinary beginning.
We both entered Singapore Polytechnic as students who did not catch most people's attention at first impression. She had the upperhand for being a Nanyang Girls' graduate, reputable and acknowledged as one of the best secondary schools in the context of Singapore's Education system. Whereas I was just a quiet neighbourhood schoolboy whom no one took much notice in, apart from my bizarre connection to being an old man.
It was definitely not love at first sight, but I would say it felt as if we'd known each other for some time when we first started chatting on MSN. The comfort and easiness that accompanied the conversations we held with each other came so naturally that it did not feel as though we had just recently become classmates of one another. I might admit though, that I was quite different the way I communicate with people through MSN than in person - I was more open and willing to express myself through means of cyber-networking; In person, I was reserved, quiet and 'in'-spoken.
She was the opposite. She was able to converse with others well and without problems, express herself freely in a group of people. Perhaps it was a result of her ability to connect people that engaged me in the conversations with her, otherwise, most MSN conversations were not sustainable either.
Soon enough we became friends of the same clique, and she was one of the closest 3 I made - the other 2 being Wayne and Fiona. She wasn't anything like Wayne, who could talk about anything so irrelevant; Neither was she like Fiona who could talk serious about sensitive topics. She's more like a person still experiencing new things in her life in her decision to come to SP, unable to help others in their issues. However, she was always more than willing to sit and listen, although she might not be able to provide with the best consolation and advice.
Whenever I had problems, not like I always do, she was ever-ready to cast aside her own worries of schoolwork to just listen to the complaints I had. In return, she always amused me with her stories with life, people and things. As we always call her a story-teller, she never runs out of stories to share, even now. Maybe that's another strength she possesses, the ability to retell something interestingly =D.
Over the three years in SP we developed a friendship that was strong and I could see that we have built it in such a way that it could sail across the most treacherous sea. But never did I expect something more, and I doubt she felt differently.
How then, did two different worlds collide?
It happened not so long ago. This is just my part of the story, you have to wait till she fills in her part of the story =D. Soon after we finished our final paper in our three years of study, we started to talk more frequently online. It was true that I still did not feel anything for her, but as time pursued, feelings changed.
I remembered that time I was still frantically in search of a job to occupy my free time. She was then employed by her mother's company as an assistant in the company. She had a computer of her own to do her excel work and some other duties, she was able to access the internet and you guessed it, she was online all the time! Although she was online, there wasn't really anyone to entertain her as most of us had a job already, or were finding ourselves activities since it's the end of our education in Poly. There was me. I was online most of the time too, and I became her companion to chat with when she got too bored at work.
It was initially just my leisure activity, as there weren't many people online to chat with me too. Having her to be online to entertain me was of great pleasure, and we never ran out of topics. Slowly, I became accustomed to her and every afternoon, I would be anticipating the small window to pop from the bottom right hand corner of my screen. Not just every afternoon, every night I would wait for or initiate a conversation, and it had become a necessity.
Time passed and I realised one night when I wasn't talking to her, this weird feeling built up in me. I thought perhaps it was just a habit acting up, but it was clearer after a few nights of not talking, not consecutive nights though =D. I realised I had started to take more notice for this girl and soon enough if given the chance, I would fall for her.
It sure was soon. On April's Fool Day this year, I suggested to her we act intimately before the rest of them, hoping to play a prank. Well, it didn't actually work out but after our lunch at Seoul Garden, I schemed another. Details will not be given here because it might due offense to some. This time, it worked out and we played as couple to fool Shirley and Sarah.
Throughout the time when both of us walked side by side each other, plotting how we could fool them, it really felt as though we were a couple. The comfort was something I had never felt before and it was most probably why we pulled it off so successfully that Shirley, being the smarter one, did not see through it!
That was not the main point of course. It was that particular incident when I knew I was starting to fall in love with her. No one knew, no one noticed, because everyone thought we were best friends and nothing else ...
Events that followed were rather mind-wrecking. I knew I will be enlisted later this year, and she was starting school, and I feared to confess. Maybe at that time I could feel that she felt the same way for me, but because of the tough road ahead, I was afraid that it might not work out as well as I hope it will. That was why for some reasons, I did not wish to confess to her, not knowing what could turn out.
Some time later I told Fiona about it. Apparently, soon after she knew, she knew something else as well, and that was when she encouraged me to let out what I felt for her. As she was so tight-lipped, I couldn't force anything out of her. I pondered for long, and it happened one night.
We were talking on MSN as usual, and all of a sudden, she probed me to tell her what I said I would when the time was right. When I finally told her, she was full of doubts and did not believe me, as I had actually previously tried to trick her so many times the same way as I confessed. I vowed that time what I had spoken to be true, that I had fallen for her. Now, I stand by my vow =D.
That incident happened not too long before our Graduation Day, and on that day itself, things started off a little awkward. I tried my best to get close to her and soon enough, things went back to normal. As I was seated alone away from the rest of the people, all I could do was to find people to chat with via SMS and she was obviously one of them. The other? Joan Ting who was sitting next to her!
Throughout the session, she was actually telling Joan about me telling her about my confession and asking her for her opinion. I was kept in the dark that Joan knew about it!!! Haha. In fact, she had told quite a number of people already!
So the whole time on Grad Day, I was able to stick to her for our dinner and also our drinking session at Timbre. I was sure I was going to ask for her hand that night, and with the help of some alcohol, I plucked out more courage to do so. I typed out a message to ask her, because I realised the situation was not suitable with many of us sitting around. She replied asking if I would be sending her home and I said, "Yes! If you allow me to!".
After that, the rest of the night at Timbre was spent nervously, for me at least. I kept sipping my beer away and looking in her direction, while she directed her attention to the rest of the clique. HAHA! What a moment!
Time to go home. We walked up that long stretch of road leading to her house. Haha. The very first part we were just talking randomly, and suddenly, she questioned me like a convict! I should think my answers satisfied her, and my strategic planning to ask on that day had her accept me to be her official boyfriend. It must be one of the life moments I will never ever forget, and I stretched out my left hand, she held it and I thought to myself, I will never ever let go of her =D.
The way we held our hands sticks till today, which was quite a weird way actually. Not to let you busybodies know of course =D.
So on that fateful day, two different individuals fell in love with each other, making it two less lonely people in the world. A day to remember, a day not to forget. This is the girl I am going to hold on to, this is the girl no one else can be compared with, and this is the girl I love and will love for the rest of my life.
And now as I am sipping my milo from the glass you gave me as a present, I know it is blessed with love from you. I know you will be there when I need you to - there to assist me, to support me, to love me. Your love is more spectacular than anything else. Here I promise you I will never give you up, and I will do just as much as you would ask of me.
I love you, my dear =D.
From strangers to acquiantanceship, from acquiantanceship to close friendship, from close friendship to intimate relationship, this journey began in quite an ordinary fashion, yet surprising and valuable. Two ordinary beings, not so ordinary beginning.
We both entered Singapore Polytechnic as students who did not catch most people's attention at first impression. She had the upperhand for being a Nanyang Girls' graduate, reputable and acknowledged as one of the best secondary schools in the context of Singapore's Education system. Whereas I was just a quiet neighbourhood schoolboy whom no one took much notice in, apart from my bizarre connection to being an old man.
It was definitely not love at first sight, but I would say it felt as if we'd known each other for some time when we first started chatting on MSN. The comfort and easiness that accompanied the conversations we held with each other came so naturally that it did not feel as though we had just recently become classmates of one another. I might admit though, that I was quite different the way I communicate with people through MSN than in person - I was more open and willing to express myself through means of cyber-networking; In person, I was reserved, quiet and 'in'-spoken.
She was the opposite. She was able to converse with others well and without problems, express herself freely in a group of people. Perhaps it was a result of her ability to connect people that engaged me in the conversations with her, otherwise, most MSN conversations were not sustainable either.
Soon enough we became friends of the same clique, and she was one of the closest 3 I made - the other 2 being Wayne and Fiona. She wasn't anything like Wayne, who could talk about anything so irrelevant; Neither was she like Fiona who could talk serious about sensitive topics. She's more like a person still experiencing new things in her life in her decision to come to SP, unable to help others in their issues. However, she was always more than willing to sit and listen, although she might not be able to provide with the best consolation and advice.
Whenever I had problems, not like I always do, she was ever-ready to cast aside her own worries of schoolwork to just listen to the complaints I had. In return, she always amused me with her stories with life, people and things. As we always call her a story-teller, she never runs out of stories to share, even now. Maybe that's another strength she possesses, the ability to retell something interestingly =D.
Over the three years in SP we developed a friendship that was strong and I could see that we have built it in such a way that it could sail across the most treacherous sea. But never did I expect something more, and I doubt she felt differently.
How then, did two different worlds collide?
It happened not so long ago. This is just my part of the story, you have to wait till she fills in her part of the story =D. Soon after we finished our final paper in our three years of study, we started to talk more frequently online. It was true that I still did not feel anything for her, but as time pursued, feelings changed.
I remembered that time I was still frantically in search of a job to occupy my free time. She was then employed by her mother's company as an assistant in the company. She had a computer of her own to do her excel work and some other duties, she was able to access the internet and you guessed it, she was online all the time! Although she was online, there wasn't really anyone to entertain her as most of us had a job already, or were finding ourselves activities since it's the end of our education in Poly. There was me. I was online most of the time too, and I became her companion to chat with when she got too bored at work.
It was initially just my leisure activity, as there weren't many people online to chat with me too. Having her to be online to entertain me was of great pleasure, and we never ran out of topics. Slowly, I became accustomed to her and every afternoon, I would be anticipating the small window to pop from the bottom right hand corner of my screen. Not just every afternoon, every night I would wait for or initiate a conversation, and it had become a necessity.
Time passed and I realised one night when I wasn't talking to her, this weird feeling built up in me. I thought perhaps it was just a habit acting up, but it was clearer after a few nights of not talking, not consecutive nights though =D. I realised I had started to take more notice for this girl and soon enough if given the chance, I would fall for her.
It sure was soon. On April's Fool Day this year, I suggested to her we act intimately before the rest of them, hoping to play a prank. Well, it didn't actually work out but after our lunch at Seoul Garden, I schemed another. Details will not be given here because it might due offense to some. This time, it worked out and we played as couple to fool Shirley and Sarah.
Throughout the time when both of us walked side by side each other, plotting how we could fool them, it really felt as though we were a couple. The comfort was something I had never felt before and it was most probably why we pulled it off so successfully that Shirley, being the smarter one, did not see through it!
That was not the main point of course. It was that particular incident when I knew I was starting to fall in love with her. No one knew, no one noticed, because everyone thought we were best friends and nothing else ...
Events that followed were rather mind-wrecking. I knew I will be enlisted later this year, and she was starting school, and I feared to confess. Maybe at that time I could feel that she felt the same way for me, but because of the tough road ahead, I was afraid that it might not work out as well as I hope it will. That was why for some reasons, I did not wish to confess to her, not knowing what could turn out.
Some time later I told Fiona about it. Apparently, soon after she knew, she knew something else as well, and that was when she encouraged me to let out what I felt for her. As she was so tight-lipped, I couldn't force anything out of her. I pondered for long, and it happened one night.
We were talking on MSN as usual, and all of a sudden, she probed me to tell her what I said I would when the time was right. When I finally told her, she was full of doubts and did not believe me, as I had actually previously tried to trick her so many times the same way as I confessed. I vowed that time what I had spoken to be true, that I had fallen for her. Now, I stand by my vow =D.
That incident happened not too long before our Graduation Day, and on that day itself, things started off a little awkward. I tried my best to get close to her and soon enough, things went back to normal. As I was seated alone away from the rest of the people, all I could do was to find people to chat with via SMS and she was obviously one of them. The other? Joan Ting who was sitting next to her!
Throughout the session, she was actually telling Joan about me telling her about my confession and asking her for her opinion. I was kept in the dark that Joan knew about it!!! Haha. In fact, she had told quite a number of people already!
So the whole time on Grad Day, I was able to stick to her for our dinner and also our drinking session at Timbre. I was sure I was going to ask for her hand that night, and with the help of some alcohol, I plucked out more courage to do so. I typed out a message to ask her, because I realised the situation was not suitable with many of us sitting around. She replied asking if I would be sending her home and I said, "Yes! If you allow me to!".
After that, the rest of the night at Timbre was spent nervously, for me at least. I kept sipping my beer away and looking in her direction, while she directed her attention to the rest of the clique. HAHA! What a moment!
Time to go home. We walked up that long stretch of road leading to her house. Haha. The very first part we were just talking randomly, and suddenly, she questioned me like a convict! I should think my answers satisfied her, and my strategic planning to ask on that day had her accept me to be her official boyfriend. It must be one of the life moments I will never ever forget, and I stretched out my left hand, she held it and I thought to myself, I will never ever let go of her =D.
The way we held our hands sticks till today, which was quite a weird way actually. Not to let you busybodies know of course =D.
So on that fateful day, two different individuals fell in love with each other, making it two less lonely people in the world. A day to remember, a day not to forget. This is the girl I am going to hold on to, this is the girl no one else can be compared with, and this is the girl I love and will love for the rest of my life.
And now as I am sipping my milo from the glass you gave me as a present, I know it is blessed with love from you. I know you will be there when I need you to - there to assist me, to support me, to love me. Your love is more spectacular than anything else. Here I promise you I will never give you up, and I will do just as much as you would ask of me.
I love you, my dear =D.
I love you too dear! =)
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