The Other Version

This blog was started all because someone was feeling upset about something, and my dear idiot did this to reassure her. Well, it certainly did move that someone to tears... Thank you so much my dear. =)

Alright, so here goes my version of our story...

Apparently, I became an MSN addict during Poly, and soon I was talking to many people online every night. My dear here was the very first person to become on my list. We talked about everything under the sun, from past to present, present to future, even finding out that he's living in the same block I used to live in, and coming up with G.aisle.

Soon, every day on MSN, I'd be checking my online list to see if he is online, and bugging him if he is. From the "Ieremias kok" then to the "Ah Pek" now... That's how long we've been talking to each other on MSN.

Talking to him was always an easy task, but all along, we maintained a very odd relationship. While we could talk about so many things from deep within us, we were never really considered very close in person. Probably because it's just like him, or maybe even me, to be slightly more subdued in person.

I was never someone with a lot of problems to begin with. He didn't really have that much either... Until some time when he started asking about whether I know of any places which teaches baking and stuff like that, because a particular person's birthday was coming up. *ehem*

At first, I was still rather surprised, because it came totally unexpected. This, was the start of a whole emotional roller coaster for him. The subsequent few months was a whole lot of ups and downs. We saw how he went from heaven to hell. I learnt more about this person here.

Then things started getting busier, and everyone went on with life as usual. Somewhere at the beginning of this year, Shirley started commenting that, "I have this feeling Jeremy and Janet will end up together."

Somehow at that time, I really don't know why, but I had the same feeling somewhere down in my gut too!

Then came the end of our final year in our course. Days were free for most of us, and especially so, the 2 of us. We began chatting online every single day. If it weren't the start of how our relationship changed, it certainly did bring us closer.

Over the days, our way of talking changed very minimally, that we probably didn't even pay much notice to. Much as that was the case, we never seemed to be able to stop talking. I have no idea how we had so many things to talk about at all.

More of the clique people started disturbing us, especially after the April Fool's joke. But this idiot here kept insisting it was impossible between us, and that we are too good friends. Deliberate deception? Hmm... Sounds familiar. =x

Then came the period of time when we started tricking each other with words. I bet he was the one who started it first. LOL! Probably too hooked on our April Fool's Day joke. Like, making so much suspense as if we're about to tell something very important, and turns out to be a very minor issue (eg. going to sleep already). -_-lll

So this went on, with revenge on each other and such... Until one day (some 1 week before Graduation Day), I managed to get my revenge by successfully making someone think that I was really going to announce something important. I really didn't expect him to believe, since I've been plotting my revenge all the while. Who knows, someone's heart was racing and was really prepared for the 'worst'.

The next day, he kept harping on wanting to exact his revenge. Well, so he did. He made his confession, and obviously, me thinking that it's only another trick of his, didn't believe! (Though a part of me secretly wanted to believe.) So he had to spend the rest of the night trying to convince me that that's the truth.

Subsequent days were quite awkward, and someone kept blaming it upon himself. Though we continued to chat on MSN as per normal, but things were never the same any more. It could never return to how it was. It was like an irreversible chemical reaction.

Then on that night before Graduation Day, he kept dropping hints that he felt like asking something the next day, but doesn't quite dare to. Idiot. Made me lose sleep the whole night just because of this. I was in a dilemma on whether I should accept or not.

On one hand, I wanted to stick by my principle of not wanting to accept so fast. On the other hand, the date is simply too tempting for me. 27th of May: First, 27 'happens' to be my favourite number. Second, it's exactly 6 months from my birthday. Third, it's on Graduation Day. How significant! A small part of me was quite afraid that he wouldn't dare to ask again due to whatever reasons... =x

Oh well, the next day finally came. Unfortunately, someone wasn't anywhere near, but he certainly was busy texting whoever he could. The indecisive me, as usual, is always asking around for opinions, although I'm quite certain now, that a decision has already been made somewhere within myself at that time.

The day proceeded, with a lot of photo taking. A final chance to do so officially as a student of SP. We totally didn't have the chance to be near each other much. Only managed a photo or so together. Then came the clique's dinner and night out at Timbre. He certainly knew how to make use of all chances to get the seat next to me.

Apparently, the night dragged on and there's obviously not much chance he had to pop the question. Hmm... In the end, he still did, by means he's already stated in his post. On the way back, I had to clear whatever uncertainties I had before giving him the answer. The answers he gave weren't exactly fantastic, but obviously I've already made up my mind long before, it doesn't really matter that much any more.

The entire night practically felt like a dream to me. Everything felt so surreal, I was living out of my usual shell. But... The way he looked at his watch anxiously and whispered with a look of relief, "It's still the 27th... Your birthday." - That, I can never forget.

This was how we got together. Sometimes, life is such a mystery. You never know what can happen. Fate works in such a way that the next person you meet could very well be the one you will live with for the rest of your life. Never stop carrying hopes.

Even though I still harp on the fact that I'm too easily won over, I can be sure I'll never regret this decision - I've really been on cloud nine-hundred and ninety-nine these past few months. All because of you. You make my life more complete.

We've entered a one-way street. There's no turning back now. I am helplessly becoming more and more dependent on you. I wish this journey never ends.

Happy 4th Month Anniversary, my dear... =)

Opposites Attract

What else is love but understanding and rejoicing in the fact that another person lives, acts, and experiences otherwise than we do?

Friedrich Nietzsche (1844 - 1900)

To that silly goose of mine...

Why would I need someone to be better than me in what I'm already good in? I need someone to help me to fill in what I'm weak in. That is exactly what you're doing, and it's enough.

Just know that no one loves me more than you do. I am very sure of that, aren't you? What you've given me is more than enough. I am really contented right now. =p

Competence, like truth, beauty and contact lenses, is in the eye of the beholder.

Laurence J. Peter (1919 - 1988), The Peter Principle (1969)

Our Beginning.

Introduction =D.

This is a blog I wish to dedicate to my one and only dear, Janet Ng (Huang Jiale), where both of us are able to write and share some of our happiest moments with our closed ones. I would like this to also act as a record of the times we spent, and the times we are going to spend in the future. In addition to that, perhaps this can double-act as our communication portal should miscommunication assumed its position in our comfort zone =D.

From strangers to acquiantanceship, from acquiantanceship to close friendship, from close friendship to intimate relationship, this journey began in quite an ordinary fashion, yet surprising and valuable. Two ordinary beings, not so ordinary beginning.

We both entered Singapore Polytechnic as students who did not catch most people's attention at first impression. She had the upperhand for being a Nanyang Girls' graduate, reputable and acknowledged as one of the best secondary schools in the context of Singapore's Education system. Whereas I was just a quiet neighbourhood schoolboy whom no one took much notice in, apart from my bizarre connection to being an old man.

It was definitely not love at first sight, but I would say it felt as if we'd known each other for some time when we first started chatting on MSN. The comfort and easiness that accompanied the conversations we held with each other came so naturally that it did not feel as though we had just recently become classmates of one another. I might admit though, that I was quite different the way I communicate with people through MSN than in person - I was more open and willing to express myself through means of cyber-networking; In person, I was reserved, quiet and 'in'-spoken.

She was the opposite. She was able to converse with others well and without problems, express herself freely in a group of people. Perhaps it was a result of her ability to connect people that engaged me in the conversations with her, otherwise, most MSN conversations were not sustainable either.

Soon enough we became friends of the same clique, and she was one of the closest 3 I made - the other 2 being Wayne and Fiona. She wasn't anything like Wayne, who could talk about anything so irrelevant; Neither was she like Fiona who could talk serious about sensitive topics. She's more like a person still experiencing new things in her life in her decision to come to SP, unable to help others in their issues. However, she was always more than willing to sit and listen, although she might not be able to provide with the best consolation and advice.

Whenever I had problems, not like I always do, she was ever-ready to cast aside her own worries of schoolwork to just listen to the complaints I had. In return, she always amused me with her stories with life, people and things. As we always call her a story-teller, she never runs out of stories to share, even now. Maybe that's another strength she possesses, the ability to retell something interestingly =D.

Over the three years in SP we developed a friendship that was strong and I could see that we have built it in such a way that it could sail across the most treacherous sea. But never did I expect something more, and I doubt she felt differently.

How then, did two different worlds collide?

It happened not so long ago. This is just my part of the story, you have to wait till she fills in her part of the story =D. Soon after we finished our final paper in our three years of study, we started to talk more frequently online. It was true that I still did not feel anything for her, but as time pursued, feelings changed.

I remembered that time I was still frantically in search of a job to occupy my free time. She was then employed by her mother's company as an assistant in the company. She had a computer of her own to do her excel work and some other duties, she was able to access the internet and you guessed it, she was online all the time! Although she was online, there wasn't really anyone to entertain her as most of us had a job already, or were finding ourselves activities since it's the end of our education in Poly. There was me. I was online most of the time too, and I became her companion to chat with when she got too bored at work.

It was initially just my leisure activity, as there weren't many people online to chat with me too. Having her to be online to entertain me was of great pleasure, and we never ran out of topics. Slowly, I became accustomed to her and every afternoon, I would be anticipating the small window to pop from the bottom right hand corner of my screen. Not just every afternoon, every night I would wait for or initiate a conversation, and it had become a necessity.

Time passed and I realised one night when I wasn't talking to her, this weird feeling built up in me. I thought perhaps it was just a habit acting up, but it was clearer after a few nights of not talking, not consecutive nights though =D. I realised I had started to take more notice for this girl and soon enough if given the chance, I would fall for her.

It sure was soon. On April's Fool Day this year, I suggested to her we act intimately before the rest of them, hoping to play a prank. Well, it didn't actually work out but after our lunch at Seoul Garden, I schemed another. Details will not be given here because it might due offense to some. This time, it worked out and we played as couple to fool Shirley and Sarah.

Throughout the time when both of us walked side by side each other, plotting how we could fool them, it really felt as though we were a couple. The comfort was something I had never felt before and it was most probably why we pulled it off so successfully that Shirley, being the smarter one, did not see through it!

That was not the main point of course. It was that particular incident when I knew I was starting to fall in love with her. No one knew, no one noticed, because everyone thought we were best friends and nothing else ...

Events that followed were rather mind-wrecking. I knew I will be enlisted later this year, and she was starting school, and I feared to confess. Maybe at that time I could feel that she felt the same way for me, but because of the tough road ahead, I was afraid that it might not work out as well as I hope it will. That was why for some reasons, I did not wish to confess to her, not knowing what could turn out.

Some time later I told Fiona about it. Apparently, soon after she knew, she knew something else as well, and that was when she encouraged me to let out what I felt for her. As she was so tight-lipped, I couldn't force anything out of her. I pondered for long, and it happened one night.

We were talking on MSN as usual, and all of a sudden, she probed me to tell her what I said I would when the time was right. When I finally told her, she was full of doubts and did not believe me, as I had actually previously tried to trick her so many times the same way as I confessed. I vowed that time what I had spoken to be true, that I had fallen for her. Now, I stand by my vow =D.

That incident happened not too long before our Graduation Day, and on that day itself, things started off a little awkward. I tried my best to get close to her and soon enough, things went back to normal. As I was seated alone away from the rest of the people, all I could do was to find people to chat with via SMS and she was obviously one of them. The other? Joan Ting who was sitting next to her!

Throughout the session, she was actually telling Joan about me telling her about my confession and asking her for her opinion. I was kept in the dark that Joan knew about it!!! Haha. In fact, she had told quite a number of people already!

So the whole time on Grad Day, I was able to stick to her for our dinner and also our drinking session at Timbre. I was sure I was going to ask for her hand that night, and with the help of some alcohol, I plucked out more courage to do so. I typed out a message to ask her, because I realised the situation was not suitable with many of us sitting around. She replied asking if I would be sending her home and I said, "Yes! If you allow me to!".

After that, the rest of the night at Timbre was spent nervously, for me at least. I kept sipping my beer away and looking in her direction, while she directed her attention to the rest of the clique. HAHA! What a moment!

Time to go home. We walked up that long stretch of road leading to her house. Haha. The very first part we were just talking randomly, and suddenly, she questioned me like a convict! I should think my answers satisfied her, and my strategic planning to ask on that day had her accept me to be her official boyfriend. It must be one of the life moments I will never ever forget, and I stretched out my left hand, she held it and I thought to myself, I will never ever let go of her =D.

The way we held our hands sticks till today, which was quite a weird way actually. Not to let you busybodies know of course =D.

So on that fateful day, two different individuals fell in love with each other, making it two less lonely people in the world. A day to remember, a day not to forget. This is the girl I am going to hold on to, this is the girl no one else can be compared with, and this is the girl I love and will love for the rest of my life.

And now as I am sipping my milo from the glass you gave me as a present, I know it is blessed with love from you. I know you will be there when I need you to - there to assist me, to support me, to love me. Your love is more spectacular than anything else. Here I promise you I will never give you up, and I will do just as much as you would ask of me.

I love you, my dear =D.